May 13, 2013, part 2
I wrapped up the Cardinal sequence today, for now at least. One more after this
Tears for a Cardinal
I still fixate on the lifeless
Cardinal’s face, moist and sudden,
Staring starry at the bark
Of its tangled home, quavering
With sibilant voracity,
Though both are gone now
And the parents hum a dirge
Between the delicate fallen
Petals of mid-May’s promise
Of flowers. I still dance here,
Still with my poisonous tail
Poised to stain this page with
Blood made of my calloused
Hands, made soft of tears
Sullen of india ink and smooth
Of a pen’s abrupt body. Dreaming,
Perhaps, elsewhere, of frothing
Discontent in a sea’s sullen
Lunar tugging there
Is a cardinal, or a pair,
Burdened only by injurious hunger,
Which cares not for fate nor chance
Nor for envious cats, once
Its familiars. I might ask
If it cares that I hunger
Always in a monotone, boring
Even solitude to death
In the cat’s open maw, rose
Floating in a raven sea
Illumined by twin amber suns,
Pricking gently at the world’s
Lost sailors, stealing away souls
To bar them in wood and brass
And sink them distant, deep.
I might ask the dubious wind,
Sated with the weight of twin
Lives, if it carried off expectancy
In the bellies of two unwitting
Cardinals, who once wore residence
As being the bush beside the window
Out which I gaze. I might
Ask the soil of who stole up to them,
Padding their steps on down
Of absent parents and fall unmitigated,
To creak with the branch by my window,
Striking as quickly, with that same reach.
I might ask the sun through the boughs
If it shone upon an unforgivable
Turning of the leaves away
So as not to watch the act of swift
Adjudication of the natural. I
Might ask the rain, cool companion
Of secretive winds, if it washed
Crimson tears from the roots of that
Home that was ceased as quickly
As I turn my head at an errant chirp
Signaling cloudy change. I might
Ask many things of the outside
Were I not here bound, scuttling
The steps of my dark dance, unconsciously
Poisoning these wells, the font
From which I draw my cardinals